It's September 2nd, 4 months to go in 2012 and I did it. I've made 2012 a year of change. And it's been good.... so far.
Remember this post back in February? I've embraced the change. Even when I didn't want to!
I was forced into moving when I didn't want to and that's turned out to be very good for me. It was definitely time for a change - a new roommate and new location. My new place isn't as shiny as my last place, but it's cute and cozy enough to be home! My roommate is fantastic and I'm paying less so those are really great changes!
I have new relationships as well. I've made new friends near and far, Christians and not Christians, and deepened in some of my existing relationships.
I've been stretched in my faith. An example of this is the CRA auditing my 2009 tax return. This has been challenging. There were days I didn't have a good attitude, days where I was just downright angry, and days where I was anxious and pitying myself. The audit still hasn't been resolved but I'm not nearly as worried about it. God provided an accountant to help me out and I've learned more about how to deal with anxiety and stress.
My trip to Mexico in May (serving with YWAM Tijuana) was a huge part of that. I spent a lot of time reflecting on the last 10 years of my life (prompted by my 10 year high school reunion) and thinking about the next 10. And I realized that it didn't make sense to be anxious about the future. In the past, whenever I had to think about making future decisions, it often left me paralyzed and scared. I was so afraid of making the "wrong" choice. But God has really given me freedom and taught me how to deal with some of that fear. And it makes me more willing to embrace change.
I'm going back to school... in two days. Tuesday morning. It's been 9 years since I was in school. It will be strange to be surrounded by many 18 year old students (not all, but most) but I'm looking forward to challenging myself in this way. It will be good to stretch my brain in new ways.
One of the more stretching things about going back to school has been having to take a big step away from YWAM. I'll be down to about 8-12 hours per week with YWAM. I've been serving full time for 6 years now so it feels weird. The end of an era, if you will. It's good, but it's still strange.
On Friday, my final full day in the YWAM office for the indefinite future, I was having an emotional day about all this. Not just change in my own life but the lives of a lot of people close to me. Some of these changes are wonderful and fantastic and super exciting, but others are tragic and challenging and even life threatening. The juxtaposition of these types of events can be difficult to deal with.
*sigh*
But God is good. All the time. Not just 99% of the time. All the time. And with Him, all things are possible.
Here we go!
Remember this post back in February? I've embraced the change. Even when I didn't want to!
I was forced into moving when I didn't want to and that's turned out to be very good for me. It was definitely time for a change - a new roommate and new location. My new place isn't as shiny as my last place, but it's cute and cozy enough to be home! My roommate is fantastic and I'm paying less so those are really great changes!
I have new relationships as well. I've made new friends near and far, Christians and not Christians, and deepened in some of my existing relationships.
I've been stretched in my faith. An example of this is the CRA auditing my 2009 tax return. This has been challenging. There were days I didn't have a good attitude, days where I was just downright angry, and days where I was anxious and pitying myself. The audit still hasn't been resolved but I'm not nearly as worried about it. God provided an accountant to help me out and I've learned more about how to deal with anxiety and stress.
My trip to Mexico in May (serving with YWAM Tijuana) was a huge part of that. I spent a lot of time reflecting on the last 10 years of my life (prompted by my 10 year high school reunion) and thinking about the next 10. And I realized that it didn't make sense to be anxious about the future. In the past, whenever I had to think about making future decisions, it often left me paralyzed and scared. I was so afraid of making the "wrong" choice. But God has really given me freedom and taught me how to deal with some of that fear. And it makes me more willing to embrace change.
I'm going back to school... in two days. Tuesday morning. It's been 9 years since I was in school. It will be strange to be surrounded by many 18 year old students (not all, but most) but I'm looking forward to challenging myself in this way. It will be good to stretch my brain in new ways.
One of the more stretching things about going back to school has been having to take a big step away from YWAM. I'll be down to about 8-12 hours per week with YWAM. I've been serving full time for 6 years now so it feels weird. The end of an era, if you will. It's good, but it's still strange.
On Friday, my final full day in the YWAM office for the indefinite future, I was having an emotional day about all this. Not just change in my own life but the lives of a lot of people close to me. Some of these changes are wonderful and fantastic and super exciting, but others are tragic and challenging and even life threatening. The juxtaposition of these types of events can be difficult to deal with.
*sigh*
But God is good. All the time. Not just 99% of the time. All the time. And with Him, all things are possible.
Here we go!
3 comments:
Congratulations ^-^
Hey. So you're awesome and though I'm not sure you're around here anymore, just wanted to say happy holidays.
Who is posting as anonymous? And I do intend to continue writing more..
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